I am not depressed

Nope i am not depressed or desperate.
I am just sad that life has only this much to offer.
I already have a mental map of where it is heading.
I do not see anything much in it.

You can remain a saint.
You do not gamble,womanize,drink,badmouth people
hurt other people.

Waiting patiently for a well deserved reward
from God.

What if it doesn't happen?

Man created Art and Music to celebrate life and its emotions.
Man created Logic to explain life's bad emotions and why it should not be followed.

I want to unlock life's secrets.A full life.Not only half of it.
To look back and smile.Smile and be carefree of life's necessities

To be a real human.Celebrate humanity with a full soul and spirit.

Or is life just a random collision.Where the correct collision brings a reactive chemistry?

I need a new distraction.

I gonna watch twilight just because Dakota Fanning is in it <3

I hate being at home.
That is where i start thinking about my life.
All the opportunity i did not grasp.
The remaining time i have to live.
What i did not do to live.
What i should do to live.

If i did not have to sleep,i will probably just work for 24 hours a day.
Questions left unanswered.
My cat bugging me to open the door to let her out.
Then few minutes later bugging me to let her in.
Then she climbs and sit on my keyboard like now.

So how?Just carry on like this?
My life is supposed to be special.
And it is supposed to be shared with someone special too.

Maybe i should start drinking every night to skip this part
of my life.
Just hang in there and lay down till you sleep.
Tomorrow is gonna be a better day.

Life's Trap

A person can choose to follow logic or emotions.
Logic - Life will be in black and white.
Emotions - Life will be colouful.
Logic - Life will be boring and predictable.
Emotions - Life will be exciting and unpredictable.

If a fruitful life is living it to the fullest,
Which one do you have to choose?
Logic vs Emotions.

Emotions are unique to each of us.
You cannot explain emotions or make another feel what you feel.

Logic?Yes.You are able to explain to anyone the logic behind it.

Logic forces you to be a perfect person.
Avoid actions that results in illogical behavior.

Emotions makes you do things that are not explainable.
But emotions changes from time to time.
Emotion is associated with mood, temperament, personality and disposition, and motivation.

Logic is the study of reasoning.Logic is used in most intellectual activity, but is studied primarily in the disciplines of philosophy, mathematics, and computer science.

Emotions are humane.Logic is man made.

Even though the logic is correct,emotions will deviate us from the path.

If logic ruled humans,there will be no crime,no bad habits.Life will be perfect.

Do you want a perfect life?Keep in mind that perfect is boring.

I want you to notice when i'm not around

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out the door
She's running out
She run run run run...
run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

To be one with an unseen greater power

To be able to give up all materials,To live one with God away from greed can be a scary thing to do.Live only with necessities sufficient to cure hunger,cold and maybe heat.

Have faith in God. We may not understand him nor know how to praise him but keep in heart.

Always be humble and remember the 'person' who gave you life and take it away easily.

The comfort zone.

Everybody is working hard to achieve the comfort zone and once you reach there.It gets comfortable.You stop working hard.You become slack.You are happy with your life.
That happened to me beginning of this year and is happening to everyone in the office esp the top 2.
Please wake up your idea.Work work work.

A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A rabbit asked him,”Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?” The crow answered: “Sure, why not.” So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested.

A fox jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very high up.

Why do humans need to live up to such and old age?

Have you every thought to yourself why do need to live such a long life?
Maybe in our previous lives we were all animals and 'God' wants to punish us for the mistakes we have done as animals?So we are doomed to live a longer life?
Take for an example,a life of a cat.So simple.Yet they,unlike humans do not have habits that will harm themselves?In the wild they just search for food and basically mind their own business.
As humans we need to work,think about this that.Be aware of this and that.
So which life is better?A human or an animal?
Maybe humans should be at the bottom of the chain because they are the only wants that do not learn from their mistakes,takes risk and are bad habitual animals.
Yes habitual.We just like having habits.
Maybe that is why we are here?To serve our sentence.To prove to greater powers that we can actually change from the bad habits we have?
Maybe that is why 'he/she' gives us such a long time to live knowing that not even 1 of us can redeem ourselves.